Give your entire attention…

Even though I slept well last night, I could sure sleep a lot more! Which has something to do with spending an hour scrubbing/scraping paint marks off of the floors. Don’t blame our Renovation Guy, he just had SO much to do! Including the removal of 35-year-old wallpaper, etc.

Today, there’s mirrors and some of the windows to wash down, a couple of floors to shine up, and a trip to the dump (thank goodness that is so close-by!) I know what you’re going to say, “You should put those boys of yours to work”, well, I did: Rej swiffered two floors yesterday, and Sam washed the front door, and made gopher-runs.

A verse that came up in two of my readings this morning: “Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.” (Matthew 6:34)

The NLT says “Don’t worry…” This seems to be my verse for the year, ever since the person-who-didn’t-know-me prayed for me not to worry about my child at our first church service of the New Year.  Never thought I was one to worry, but once I became a Mom…

These days, my “worry” is about whether or not we will get the price we want for our home. You don’t think about all the faults until you’re forced to look at them through someone else’s eyes! You might say that I should trust God, but what if we’re not really following his will in all this? If there’s something you really want, it’s hard to know if it’s not just your own will coming into play.

However, there are some clues that I can see, when I back away and look at the “whole picture” (or part of the whole picture). We’re still between churches, so it seems like a good time to change cities. But if Sam hadn’t been so sick, and able to come to the new church with us, we might have been quite involved already, and find it all the harder to move. If he hadn’t been sick for so long, he might have made more friends in Toronto, and found it that much harder to move.

Of course, the strong clues are the business that is now set up in Ottawa–they seemed to be able to manage it from here (today’s technology), but a recent problem has hinted that it wouldn’t always be that easy; the other clue being the fact that there are quite a few friends and family who are excited to hear that we’ll be so much closer to them.

Well, Lord, I’m looking forward to seeing what else there is!

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There’s been a picture playing in my mind recently, from when we were kids, in the summertime. My parents had put in a big pool in the back yard, to keep us at home. There were/are two different kinds of people: those (like myself) who would go into the cool water very gradually, wanting to and not wanting to at the same time; and those (like my Dad and Grandfather) who would just jump in.

Often, someone (like my Dad) would come along and without warning, pick you up and just throw you in! After the initial shock, you would actually be quite glad they’d done it–you got to enjoy the refreshment much sooner. :D

Sam and I are slow-starters…. but Rej has managed to “throw us in the pool”, and get us going on a probable move to Ottawa. ;) Now that we’re getting into it, I’d almost forgotten this picture; but this morning I read:

When my kids were little, I used to stand at the edge of the pool in the water and say, “Trust me. Jump to me.” They were always afraid. Is he strong enough to catch me? Are his hands slippery? What happens if he doesn’t catch me? But finally they would get up enough faith to jump into my arms, and of course I would catch them. Then they’d want to do it a hundred more times!

Your Father is waiting for you to jump today. He’s saying, “Trust me. I can be trusted. I’m working behind the scenes. And I can handle anything you give me.” (Rick Warren)

Neat eh?

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Be free!

Spring must be coming–I took off my socks and slippers without even knowing I’d done it!

I’ve been moaning quite a bit about all this packing work. Amazing that even though I’m in bed for 8 hours and take my time relaxing with coffee in the morning, I’m still so physically exhausted at the end of the day.

However, there seems to be a “prick” of light at the end of the Tunnel, finally!

And now I forget what I was going to say…. (Except that we’re looking forward to a nice Easter away, with family.) However, the verse that comes up next that I was going to share matches perfectly with something I read in Daily Hope this morning (and remember, it doesn’t have anything to do with anything… :P):

“…the truth will set you free, but first it makes you miserable.” (Rick Warren)

“What this adds up to, then, is this: no more lies, no more pretense. Tell your neighbor the truth. In Christ’s body we’re all connected to each other, after all. When you lie to others, you end up lying to yourself.” (Ephesians 4:25)

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time for a break

Just because it’s kinda too late to say, “Are you sure we should be doing this?!” (moving) doesn’t mean I don’t say it, to myself. At least one person is quite sure we should, so we’ll let that drive us. ;)

I’ve learned a trick though, whenever I feel sentimental: talk back to myself. Say, “just don’t think about it.” You know, it actually works! It also works for thinking about the huge, HUGE job still ahead, of de-cluttering, cleaning, etc. Because this morning it’s not the sentimental thoughts that make me feel like crying. And I slept fine! Good news: many weeks ago we booked a hotel downtown, to go to this Bitcoin conference (for our business). At the time it seemed rather extravagant, but it sure is a God-send now! Not only a welcome break from the House Work (how can we be so tired after only 1 day of it??!), but it works out so well for the renovation-guy–he hopes to have our bedrooms painted while we’re gone.

As I sit here and look out at my garden, where the Maidenhair Fern is awakening from winter slumber at long last, I just know it’s going to make me cry to think I’m leaving it behind… but how silly is that? When we move to Ottawa, I can go and look at LOTS of Maidenhair Ferns several times a week, at my parents’ place!!

And anyway, we still don’t know for sure that this is our last Spring here. That will depend on:

  1. whether or not we can be ready to show our home before the market slumps,
  2. whether or not we can get the price we hope to, in order to buy what we need in Ottawa.

“…a life renewed from the inside and working itself into your conduct as God accurately reproduces his character in you.” (Ephesians 4:23-24)

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Everything has to go?

This now becomes a journal of a once-in-a-lifetime experience–once in 35 years, that is! Aren’t you fascinated to read about the experience of moving? Hahahahahaha… !

First: we have to make sure we get the right amount of $ for this place, in order to move into something we can live with for the rest of our lives. (And just to be clear, we’ve lived in Toronto for 35 years, and in this house for 33 years, which was built 35 years ago.)

Part of the process of trying to be sure of that amount, is of course, the Staging. You may know all about that, but how many of you know about the mountains of work there would be after 33 years?! All we can say to ourselves is, “we’ll be ready when we’re ready”. In spite of the fact that Spring is moving on, and it’s the best time to sell.

The first worry/question we had, was how much the renovating would cost. That’s now settled, since it’s no more than we thought. He is getting started as soon as he can, so it would be nice to have some of the larger items (that should be removed for showing) out of his way. Right now we can’t continue until we get some bigger boxes, to put the stuff in that is being emptied out of those larger items; and we can’t pick up those boxes until we get rid of the load of garbage in the back of the truck, and the disposal depot doesn’t open until 10 am…

Meanwhile we do have a conference to go to this weekend (which is perhaps a good thing, to be out of the house during the painting, etc.), and life must continue with laundry, menu planning (including Sam’s dietary concerns), grocery shopping, dentist appointments, Easter, etc. etc.

“We’ll be ready when we’re ready”!

“Since, then, we do not have the excuse of ignorance, everything – and I do mean everything – connected with that old way of life has to go. It’s rotten through and through. Get rid of it! And then take on an entirely new way of life – a God-fashioned life,” (Ephesians 4:22)

HAHAHAHA–“Everything… has to go… get rid of it! … entirely new way of life…”–very funny God!! :D

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no going along with the crowd

Others are starting to get excited now, about us moving to Ottawa; but I should say–we haven’t actually, totally, for-sure decided on it yet. That decision will come:

  • once we know what we could get for our present home (and maybe it’s not as much as we think, since most people, like the real estate agent said, would have moved 5 or 6 times in our 33 years here… not sure how that would change things);
  • then we see what’s available for that price in Ottawa, and whether or not it meets our needs.

Meanwhile, we’re still figuring out what those needs actually are; but we’re getting close to knowing ourselves, haha.

Spring must be coming, we heard a baseball game last night! Oh, and they actually WON!! :)

Word for today: “family”.

“And so I insist – and God backs me up on this – that there be no going along with the crowd, the empty-headed, mindless crowd. They’ve refused for so long to deal with God that they’ve lost touch not only with God but with reality itself. They can’t think straight anymore. Feeling no pain, they let themselves go in sexual obsession, addicted to every sort of perversion. But that’s no life for you. You learned Christ!” (Ephesians 4:17-20)

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DISCLAIMER: I am NOT insinuating that my family is the “mindless crowd”, LOL!


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the whole truth

Promise: I’ll try not to talk about this in every post for the next several weeks! You can accept though, that writing things down is a good tool for sorting out the confusion in one’s mind/heart. After all, I do this blog for me…  Our friends who made the sudden decision to move, well, they’ve only been in that house for 15 years, vs our 33. And they’re not moving 4 hours away!

When I think about the good things about moving to Ottawa, it’s a little hard to remember why I feel so very… what’s the word… scared about it? In the night times. If I could be sure (totally, absolutely sure) it’s what we’re supposed to do, it would be much easier. If the other two in my family are both excited, at least a little, about moving–that would bring me along.

What I should do is, when I’m feeling that “I just can’t!” thing, at that time: write down the reasons. Also, perhaps I should look up a list of things one should think about when moving (changing doctors & dentists, bank branches, etc. etc.).

At the moment, we’re noticing a couple things:

  • Our friends’ thoughts about moving really got into gear when a house on their street was put up for sale on a Thursday, had a showing on Saturday, and the “SOLD” sign went up on the following Tuesday with a selling price for $65,000 MORE than they’d asked!
  • There seem to be quite a few homes available in the Ottawa area (lots with fireplaces on the main floor, open concept, large windows, hardwood floors, backyard deck, etc etc.)

Funny… yesterday I said “what does renewal have to do with anything” (the word for yesterday)… silly me!

Today’s word: “gift”. And this is not the verse for that word, but it’s a neat verse. :P Oh, and it does have to do with making sure you know what’s true (about what you should do), and about *being in step with each other*…

“God wants us to grow up, to know the whole truth and tell it in love – like Christ in everything. We take our lead from Christ, who is the source of everything we do. He keeps us in step with each other. His very breath and blood flow through us, nourishing us so that we will grow up healthy in God, robust in love.” (Ephesians 4:15-16)

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Now I want to assure you, that we’re not just trying to copy people… those friends who sold their home and bought a new one in the space of about two weeks; and other friends who said they were in no hurry but were thinking of downsizing, and suddenly they’d bought a new “upsized” home.

My sister though, was already talking about moving by the time we were thinking about it. Plus, my niece just moved, and another niece is looking for a new home… There does seem to be an explosion of moving people!

I’ve been trying to calm myself by thinking about things that would make me truly happy about a new home. Like maybe, a fireplace on the main floor, or a screened-in porch. And we have to have 3 floors, and a place to sit outside… I can’t help thinking that there will be something that is SO perfect, or that has some little amazing thing that we weren’t expecting, that will confirm to us that it’s something we really should do… Naive perhaps!

Anyway, today’s word is “renewal”. And what that has to do with anything…. maybe I’ll know by the end of the day. ;)

Proverbs 19:21

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Love you!

That’s funny–I was just muttering about not having posted for 4 or 5 days, and then read in my blog from two years ago, how I’d not posted for “three days!”

Today’s “word for the day” was very easy to come up with: love. Because it was the theme in three of my readings this morning. Love is what I’ve been feeling at our new church; and the old one as well, as I share concerns at the Ladies’ Meeting that I still go to; as well as our Small Group that we still attend. But (speaking of love) I’m getting so attached to that new church, just when it happens that we might be moving cities–GAAAH!! I’ve been anxious to get a little more involved in church again, but now that will have to be delayed some more.

After living for 35 years here, you can imagine the churning inside me… If it’s in the morning, I can be excited about moving closer to family, having a new home, etc. If it’s at night (or on Sunday after church), I feel like saying “I can’t, I just can’t!” Plus, there’s the mother-heart, doing its worry-job, asking if it’s really the right thing, etc.

What I’ll have to look up, is the church communities in the area we might be moving to. Of course, there is no doubt that God’s family will be just as wonderful there, but it would just comfort me to know more about it.

Oh, after the usual readings this morning, I opened up an extra one to get caught up (after having weekend visitors). The theme of that one: “fresh start”…….   ;)

“…get out there and walk – better yet, run! – on the road God called you to travel. I don’t want any of you sitting around on your hands. I don’t want anyone strolling off, down some path that goes nowhere. And mark that you do this with humility and discipline – not in fits and starts, but steadily, pouring yourselves out for each other in acts of love, alert at noticing differences and quick at mending fences.” (Ephesians 4:1-3)

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My reading in Matthew this morning included the story where the woman from Tyre was so desperate for her child to be healed, that she was willing for whatever “crumbs” might fall from the table (she was not Jewish, and the idea was that Israel was to receive the gospel first). Jesus was amazed at her faith (as he was a few times, about non-Jewish people).

Then the “People of the Day” in the missionary prayer digest, was a group who are considered strange by those around them, because of the colour of their skin.

So, I think “colour” is a good word for today! As we learned in Perspectives, God has made such a colourful variety of people, and desires each group to bring their uniqueness with them to worship. (Contrary to the “old” style of requiring every individual to conform to another culture’s traditions; although, it was a Jesuit priest who wrote the Huron Carol…)

Speaking of God’s Family…. I’ve been lazy about sermon notes, but here’s a nugget from last Sunday: Jesus’ work on the Cross is so complete, that he is not ashamed to call us “brother/sister”! That’s how holy we really are, when God looks at us through that perfect sacrifice that Jesus made. *praise*

“You have one Master, one faith, one baptism, one God and Father of all, who rules over all, works through all, and is present in all. Everything you are and think and do is permeated with Oneness. But that doesn’t mean you should all look and speak and act the same. Out of the generosity of Christ, each of us is given his own gift.” (Ephesians 4:5-7)

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