Praise you Lord, that I can put myself in your hands and count on you from morning to night. I can be confident that you’ll answer when I cry for help. Nothing I might obsess about, compares to you and your works. All the nations will one day honour you and “parade your greatness”!

You are known for forgiveness, you are tender and kind, not easily angered, immense in love! You never, never quit. You snatch us from the brink of disaster, and gently and powerfully put us back on our feet.

(from Psalm 86)

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If you don’t want to miss new posts from this blog, you’d better click on my “Home” tab at the top, and then scroll way down to the bottom and enter your email address, then click “subscribe”. Because I’m pretty sure most people are like me: when they see that “so and so shared” something, they just flick right by it, hit delete, whatever. It’s impossible to read everything, that’s for sure, or even to read all the headlines.

Speaking of this “modern-day water cooler” (social media), how about some notes on an excellent Compassion article about How to be an Effective Social Media Slactivist?

Slactivism, hashtag activism, vanity activitism–these are a few different terms for the same thing: expressing support for a cause solely through social media. Sometimes it has little impact (e.g. #Kony2012 and #BringBackOurGirls); and sometimes it gets people to take action and actually can raise a significant amount of money (e.g. #BlackLivesMatter and ALSIceBucketChallenge).

So here are the hints Compassion gives, if you want to get on the positive side of it:

  1. Of course, as Christians we always want to start everything with prayer. And as Compassion says “meditate on your motives”, and ask yourself a few questions. It seems to be natural to just do things to look good, and social media certainly encourages that.
  2. Inform yourself. I try to not even click “Like” unless I’ve actually read the article. Did that once, learned my lesson! Being educated about what you’re advocating, goes a long way towards success at motivating others.
  3. Not all opinions need to be shared. There is someone on my newsfeed who always has a lot to say–I’ve learned to skim by her. On the other hand, there are friends who hardly ever Share something, and don’t really update their status that often: when they do, of course it grabs my attention! As Compassion says, sharing “opinions about everything and anything is a sure-fire way to lose credibility”. There are SO many good causes! Pick something you’re passionate about, and research it.
  4. “Don’t be an alarmist. [this point copied complete] Speak intelligently, not angrily. Speak with passion, not with vitriol. Speak with compassion, not hatred. Point people to accurate information to support your passion.”
  5. Share your story. This is where you can be personal, and vulnerable. Adds weight to the issue.
  6. Pray again. Double check what you’ve written, before hitting that “post” or “send” button!
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My One Word isn’t being updated as often as I’d originally planned, but good enough that it gets done as often as I can find something, or come across something that fits. “Done” usually means a Facebook status update, sometimes with a photo. Now that there are “memories”, you know you’ll always come across them again.

However, one wants to be careful about those updates–I’m always stopped with the thought: “Do I really want to read this again next year? Or in ten years?”

My hashtag for the One Word is kind of weird, but that’s to make it only show up the things I’ve tagged, since other versions are things other people have used as well (#oneword, #myoneword, etc.).

The “thread” I’m noticing this morning, is something that’s running through my morning readings, the Sunday sermon series, and what I’ve been teaching these days to the three-year-olds: “obedience”.

  • The kids’ stories are examples of obedience from various Old Testament characters;
  • the sermon series is based on Malachi, where God is “fed up” with ritual obedience, but wants worship that comes from the heart;
  • of course the Old Testament is full of obedience stories, and I’m using some summary-videos that are excellent in helping one understand the Torah, as well as following along with a ministry of one of my students, who is a Jewish Christian (also chaplain to the Ottawa Champions) and writes a short narrative about the week’s Torah readings (“Torahbytes”). The one I read this morning (I’m way behind on these), talked specifically about obedience.

You really should check out those videos!

EDIT Later: I watched the last video that they have, Deuteronomy, “the epic conclusion to the Torah”, and just need to add some notes here! This is where the “shemah” (sp?) is, “Listen oh Israel… love the Lord your God with all your heart, mind, strength” (“shemah” means “listen”). It’s all about obedience, starting with listening, which is exactly what I’ve been trying to teach the kids lately.

The key words are “listen” and “love”; the Hebrew for “listen” including the idea of responding–obeying. And of course, “love” should always be the true motive for obeying, which is exactly what we’ve been talking about in Small Group. “Israel won’t obey without love, and they don’t truly love if they don’t obey.” Of course, they don’t seem able to obey, which speaks of the human condition, and the need for a Saviour to transform our hearts.


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even a little bit

The main reason I want to make these notes, is because it’s what I would like to say myself, to people. Thank you Steve T. for giving me the words!

One thing that jumped out at me that day, was “You can’t really know with certainty until you commit.” So even it you’re a little bit sure, God will honour that. Think about the things you’ve “always thought”, and be open enough to doubt your doubts–see what the reasons are behind your thinking. Be honest about your bias.

We always want to tell people that they should do some research, “check it out”, and weigh the evidence–concerning the truth of a particular “man” being able to rise from the dead, etc. Of course we know that being objective about these things is not enough, that it needs to be personalized.

Hunger is proof that food exists. The deepest longings of the heart (for example, our sense of injustice) are proof that God exists. I’m so often reminded that ordinary human beings just cannot love the way those same human beings desire to be loved–we are prone to error. But God can, and does love us that perfectly.

If God is not a judge, than there is no hope for us–we cry out for justice. But law and love come together in Jesus, who met the requirements of God’s law out of his love for us. And as we respond to that, we are released from being driven by other things–those things that will, in the end, crush us. Every other religion says “DO”, while Jesus says, “It is DONE” (one of his final words from the cross).

Hope these thoughts are not too disjointed to follow!


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breathe, cry, sing

Time to put something down, to keep the memory: our first trip back to our previous “home” of 35 years. And it took almost 2 years before we did it!

The quote at the top of my home page these days is: “If you do not BREATHE through writing, if you do not CRY OUT in writing, or SING in writing, then DON’T WRITE”. (It’s to keep me from writing too much.) Not sure if this memory is breathing, crying, or singing. Maybe a bit of each!

First of all, if we had ever thought that we were just imagining that Ottawa has less traffic than Toronto, we were totally confirmed on that score: incredible how much traffic, how much people, there can be in one area on a Saturday afternoon! No wonder I used to take such a deep breath every time we’d come to Mom & Dad’s for a visit!

Sunday morning we caused quite a disturbance at our old church, and couldn’t get by without a hug for every single person of course! The funny thing was, the other couple who moved to Ottawa (years before us), who called Good Shepherd home years ago, were also there! We joked that we had to come to Toronto to see each other, even though we live a short bridge-distance away in Ottawa. But that wasn’t really a joke. ;S

Yes, that was the crying time. So many beautiful people that used to be in our lives every week, and more, for soooo many years! When I felt myself losing control, the thing to do was remind myself that the purpose of that place and time was worship, more than to see people. Not about me.

But it was certainly wonderful to see two more people being baptized there, and both of them crediting our sweet friend Lisa Li, being also thankful for the church, but mostly thankful for God. Their pastor was so good, that I’ll have to make sermon notes. You know I haven’t done that in a long time!

We waited at the back of the church afterwards, until almost everyone had gone. Weird to see them for such a few minutes, and some only a hug during communion. They were so happy to see us, but, I wonder if it was mean of us to drop in?

Monday we saw our financial advisor, and then visited old friends for dinner, having a wonderful time sharing new things (seeing their new home & land, talking about our new churches) and remembering old things. That would definitely be the “singing”!

Tuesday we returned the 407 transponder (more terrible traffic), and then (crying part again): watched the Blue Jays lose! One could say they were good seats, just above 3rd base, but wow–so uncomfortable! When did they shrink the seats??! :/

Somewhere in there I made a quick trip to Michael’s (siingiing), which was practically across the street from where we were staying at Rej’s brother’s place: one (kind of) advantage to living in a big city–good shopping SO close by!

Oh, and speaking of CRYING… our poor cat, didn’t stop–the whole way there, and the whole way back! It was kind of David (Sam’s friend), to be so willing to keep her while we were there. Our plan was to get her used to travelling; we remember friends who always took their cats with them camping, or to the cottage. Maybe when we go on a shorter trip, we could let her out of the cage, on her leash. Maybe that will work better. Maybe.

Wednesday we finished things up with our lawyer (so many things to think of when you move), and then went to a friend’s birthday supper, then off home the next day. It was all great fun, but definitely felt good to get home to Ottawa!


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“A song to our strong God! A shout to the God of Jacob! Anthems from the choir, music from the band, sweet sounds from lute and harp, Trumpets and trombones and horns: it’s a festival day…” Thank you for establishing days to celebrate! And thank you for music, and so many varieties of music! And no wonder we feel like celebrating, because “I hear this most gentle whisper from One I never guessed would speak to me: ‘I took the world off your shoulders, freed you from a life of hard labor. You called to me in your pain; I got you out of a bad place.'” Amen!! (from Psalm 81)


Remind me always, to be open to your goodness, to run to you when I’m feeling desperate, and to keep these doors open through worshiping you. May I always seek you, and be full of you. When I look to you for help (and so often I need help from myself!), I will be “radiant with joy”, and “no shadow of shame” will darken my face! (Psalm 34:5-9)


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after Good Friday

Just thinking, about sacrifice. Since it is the end of Lent, when lots of people try to give up something for 40 days.

I’m often feeling challenged about that, because I do have so many comforts. Then I comfort myself by saying that every time I have to work to cook a meal, or clean the house, etc., it’s a type of “sacrifice” that I do for my little family. Or, it’s important to “sacrifice” to keep myself healthy (exercise, proper nutrition, proper sleep), so that I can do the work that I’m supposed to do and be the help that I need to be. True to a point I suppose. But I know it’s kind of a cop-out.

Of course, there is no doubt that we can never ever, even try, to match God’s sacrifice for us. And he took the punishment so that we wouldn’t have to. Also, you can see how over-thinking this could lead to the kind of extremes that people in the past have done, like mutilating themselves, or putting their bodies through other extreme physical things. I love to point out to myself how the Bible says that God gives us “all things to enjoy”.

But I just want to think about it. What are all the comforts I enjoy? Too many!

  • this soft chair I’m sitting on
  • the fact that I get to put my feet up every time I sit in it
  • the fact that I get to sit here quite often
  • a very comfortable bed to sleep in at night (actually two of them, HA!)
  • a beautiful home to shelter me (much, much more than is really needed)
  • much, much more food than is really needed–and so much to choose from, and so many ways to cook it
  • lots of water to keep me clean and hydrated
  • peace from the noise of the outside world, rooms to escape to if I need to
  • all kinds of recreational activities, hobbies, etc.

These are general, kind of “basic” things, but many of them I would feel like I was dying, if I had to give them up! Some of them I couldn’t even try to. I wonder if I could only sit on hard chairs for 40 days, or sleep on the floor at night? Nah, not going to be that silly!

Lots of missionaries DO give those things up: I heard of one who lives in a hut the size of her bedroom at home, and uses a type of “porta-potty”, etc. I remember thinking, when I was a young kid who was just coming to Christ, that I was afraid that God would ask me to be a missionary in Africa, or something like that. And then I realized that he would not ask me to do that… Now I know that original feeling is quite proper: we should begin by assuming that we ARE to go, until we know that’s not what God has in mind for us particularly. Of course, these days I would not be so afraid of going to Africa, except for physical, health-type of reasons (I’m old!)

Anyway, I have no idea where this is going! :P Nowhere, really. Just wanted to jot down my thoughts.


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Praise you that whenever we’re tempted to say, “the Most High has turned his hand against me”, all we need to do is remember what you have done–even “your wonderful deeds of long ago”. Your Word is so precious, and I’m so thankful for the abundant opportunity I’ve had to learn it, so that those deeds can be “constantly in my thoughts”, and when I’m in need of them, “I can’t stop thinking about your mighty works.” Even those long ago stories of how you rescued your people after 400 years, how Abraham and Moses had to wait for so many years to see your plan unfold, can be so encouraging to remember! Your ways are indeed holy, and no “god” that I might see around me is as mighty as you. (Psalm 77)


Lord, help us to remember that you have given us authority “over all the power of the enemy”, even to walk among poisonous snakes, and that you said “nothing can hurt you”, no one can lay a hand on us, if we’re carrying out your plan. We will even be able to crush those snakes. Help us to take that authority, in faith–as we pray, and as we do whatever you lead us to do. (Luke 10:20-21)


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waste your life

It was such a waste! All that perfume, just poured out, and it was expensive enough that a lot of useful things could have been done with the money obtained by selling it–lots of help for the poor, etc.

Jesus didn’t see it that way. Because it was an act of worship. (See Mark 14:3-9)

“Worship the wrong things and nothing else will come out quite right. But worship the living God who has given himself for us in the sacrifice for us in the sacrifice of Jesus and you have a new sense of what matters and you will prioritize your life accordingly.”

“Waste” you life on the one who “wasted” His life on you. Love comes first, and then you will care about his agenda, which includes the poor. Radical generosity “flows from worshiping God.”

“Put God ahead of all else as the only one worthy of your worship and you will find you are pouring yourself out in all sorts of beautiful ways in service to the world.”

(Great devotion today from my YouVersion plan–by Redeemer Presbyterian Church.)

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eighteen (a trip through Psalm 73)


We were just talking about the need to remember that God is good (+ sovereign), in order to move from complaint to trust, in our lamenting…

“No doubt about it! God is good–good to good people, good to the good-hearted [he knows our heart]. But I nearly missed it, missed seeing his goodness.” Why? Because “I was looking the other way, looking up to the people at the top, envying…. ” those who “have it made”, who “have nothing to worry about, not a care in the whole wide world…. Pampered and overfed, decked out in silk bows of silliness.” These are people who use words to kill and bully, “full of hot air…. People actually listen to them–can you believe it?”  (Sounds like certain politicians!)

Lord, help us not to betray “your dear children” by “giving in and talking like this”: feeling like “nobody’s minding the store”, that we’ve “been stupid to play by the rules”, that we’ve had nothing but “a long run of bad luck… a slap in the face… a splitting headache”. Ahhhh! But there it is! We feel those things: “Until [we] entered the sanctuary of God.” Praise you for that sanctuary, in the various places that we find it! “Then [we see] the whole picture”! How those seemingly “getting away with it” people will suddenly come to disaster, on their slippery road “with a final crash in a ditch of delusions.” Then, “in the blink of an eye… we wake up and rub out eyes…” because they’re gone–“There’s nothing to them. And there never was.”

Help us to admit our own ignorance, “a dumb ox in your very presence”–and after the very next comma, “but you’ve taken my hand”! You tenderly lead, like a Father his child, and even “When my skin sags and my bones get brittle” (old age!)

“You’re all I want in heaven! You’re all I want on earth!”  If we lose everything else in the universe, every other possession material and non-material, as long as we have You, we will be okay (more than okay!) When everything is falling apart, “God is rock-firm and faithful.” How amazing that we can be “in the very presence of God”, and yes, “how refreshing it is!” Help us indeed to make You our home, and to tell the world what you do!


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