sorry about that

It always seems hard at first, to answer these year-end questions (especially if you don’t give the usual answer about diet & exercise for this latest one ;P), but a little thought and an answer presents itself.

In case you forgot, the questions this week are: What do you wish you’d done less of in 2011 and What do you wish you’d done more of. I usually say “choose one”, but when you answer one of these, the other one comes naturally.

Again, no question for me: less talking. I’ve grown up being the “shy one”, but always able to talk a lot when you got to know me. These days, I talk a LOT, when you include facebook and blogging! Especially this year, when I needed the outlet… and I’m afraid, some others found it difficult to take. :(  And hinting at things doesn’t make it better.

Even at meetings, I find that there’s always this feeling of having something really important to say–like people would really be missing something if I didn’t say it! In fact, that was something we talked about at the retreat; how, instead of listening to what someone is saying, we are busy thinking about what we’re going to say next.

But there was one person at the retreat whom I stated a desire to be like. She’s actually my co-worker at the midweek kids’… people think she’s shy, but she’s just very quiet. She never seems to worry about what she’s going to say… you rarely hear a word out of her. She spends all her time listening. Like Mary, taking things in and just keeping them in her heart.

I was thinking of answering the “more of” with praying… but I think listening would be better, for me. And listening, after all, is included in prayer.

“If, when we were at our worst, we were put on friendly terms with God by the sacrificial death of his Son, now that we’re at our best, just think of how our lives will expand and deepen by means of his resurrection life!” (Romans 5:10)

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