Isn’t it exciting to start a New year, and a New decade? There is comfort in tradition and even in routine, but it’s always exciting to start something new. Like the fun I had this year, working at changing my lifestyle to be more and more “zero waste”, etc. It’s always fun to say “from now on we’re going to….” and try doing something differently than you’re used to. In fact, we even make notes to change up some of our traditions, for next Christmas.
Perhaps that’s part of what it will feel like when Jesus comes back to earth and makes “all things new”. But… all things? I confess, that seems a little difficult, from this present, earthly perspective. Though I know it’ll actually be much easier when the time comes.
For now, it’s time to think more about “fearless”, my One Word for 2020. There are SO many scripture verses for that! Even in the Christmas story, there are an awful lot of Fear not’s. Perhaps a good way to start, is to “examine” myself, and make a list of what I might actually have fear about.
- That when the “end time” comes, my loved ones will ask me, “Why didn’t you tell us?! Why weren’t you more insistent that we listen? Why did you worry about feeling uncomfortable, with such a life-or-death question?”
- That someday there will be things I’ll wish I’d been doing, instead of being so comfortable all the time.
- That I’ll soon become a huge, fat, “blimp”–not only fear of the health problems, but of the ugliness.
- That not being able to resist temptation means I’m not really allowing God to work in my life.
- Fear of not getting enough rest: this is a new discovery (edited Jan. 4), since every time I think about doing some new regular task (e.g. volunteer work), there’s a fear that I can only explain by the fact that “it may cause me to be over-tired/over-worked”. (Also, that my family may be neglected, but that’s a *good* fear!)
- Fear of my son’s unhappiness: being oppressed by too much work, loneliness, or health problems (though we’ve had some practice at dealing with that last one!); fear of him not being aware of how much God loves him (knowing that in your mind and being aware of it in your life are two different things).
- Fear of making a fool of myself, when/if I try to share the Gospel.
- Fear of death: I believe that God will supply the “ticket” (as Corrie Ten Boom describes it) when the time comes, giving strength and even enabling me to look forward to meeting Him face to face; but there’s also the death of others that one needs those tickets for!
- Fear of an opportunity passing me by, of enjoying something… more about that below.
I think that’s it! Perhaps I’ll have to edit this later, if there are any more. One of them might have been “fear of wiggly, yucky things”, like maggots, worms, etc. But I’m not really afraid of them, I just don’t like them! Also, the fear of not getting something done that needs to be done: I act like I’m afraid of this sometimes, but actually, when I think about it, the realization usually dawns that it’s really not that important, and that God is in control anyway.
I came across an interesting quote about that last fear on the list. “When we think that this life is all there is and our time is running out, we live with the Fear Of Missing Out (FOMO). When we believe that we will be raised imperishable, we are freed to labour for the Lord without growing weary.” (from Prayermate advent devotional) That fits so well with my fear of enjoying too much comfort (sensual pleasures)–the second point above. I’m thinking that a lot of these things would be “solved”, if I could focus more on that truth of “being raised imperishable”. So this also connects with the verses I’ll use for memorizing this month, which is from that article I quoted in my last post.
Since therefore the children share in flesh and blood, he himself likewise partook of the same things, that through death he might destroy the one who has the power of death, that is, the devil, and deliver all those who through fear of death were subject to lifelong slavery. (Hebrews 2:14-15)